Transcreature

I had a shitty ass day. I had to deal with a doctor about a private issue who…

(the following section might be too much information if you know me personally)

 I’m pretty sure was way not cool with me being trans, but then again it’s hard to prove these things objectively when being trans is such an awkward experience for me in general sometimes.It’s just when someone’s finger is up my ass and I feel like they’re hella judging me because I’m trans, I tend to feel super uncomfortable. I must have asked me like seven times if I had had anal intercourse and I told him I hadn’t for several months and I don’t think this appointment is related but he kept on asking the same question various times in the appointment. I totally felt way out of my comfort zone with having this old white man sticking things up my ass while being fucking rude to me.

I’m also sick of people telling me I’m homophobic because I call out cissexism in LGBT spaces, complete derailment to the fact that cissexism and heterosexism go hand in hand . However, usually no one dares say homophobic things in LGBT spaces, but I hear transphobic things ALL THE TIME. It also infuriates me because it invalidates all the work I’ve done for the cis LGB communities when I was a gay/queer-identified activist and all the work I still continue to do. ARHG!!!!

Also my car had gotten wheel-clamped. My fault kind of because I forgot to contest my parking tickets but seriously, why don’t we even have free parking at UCI? There’s so much fucking space, it’s ridiculous that they so tightly control who can be here.  

I was so mad this afternoon, just fuming and yelling out my rage. I’ve calmed down now and I made a video of me performing How to tell a trans person they are beautiful poem. That was really therapeutic for me.